My Right Now Life

learning to fully embrace this moment and fully live right now…


Five Minute Friday: Willing

{It’s Friday!  And that means it’s time for Five Minute Friday!  The rules are simple:  A one-word prompt.  5 minutes of focused writing.  No editing.  And then we link up here to see what God has put on hearts all over blog-world  🙂 }

This week’s word:  WILLING


Sometimes… the way things work out just makes me shake my head and say “Really, God??”

And I just sort of throw up my hands in surrender and say, “Ok, God… I get it!”

You may have noticed that I didn’t do FMF last week.  The word was “choose”… and I “chose” not to…

And so it’s 2am when I see the prompt for today:  Willing.

Ok God… so sometimes I am just not willing.

Sometimes I am not willing… sometimes I choose not to.

I don’t know why.

But I do know that God works his best miracles through people who have willing, surrendered hearts…not necessarily those who are most qualified, most “put-together”, the ones with the best resumes.  God works his absolute best miracles in those who are willing.

So… today Lord… help me be willing.



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Happy New… Moment?

It’s in the air.  I can almost feel it on my skin.  This sense of “new-ness”… with a new year comes a new beginning, a blank slate, a fresh start.

My Facebook and Twitter feeds are exploding with reflections of 2013 and hopes for 2014.

It seems everyone is thinking about what the past year brought for them – both the blessings and the burdens.  And it seems like everyone is in hopeful anticipation about what the new year is going to bring.

There’s nothing wrong with that.  This is certainly a good time to reflect.  And it’s a good time to have hope for the future.

But… I also wrestle with it. Continue reading

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Stop Shaking My Snow Globe!

Ok – so confession time! I don’t like change. No, that’s not true… I actually think I HATE change. I hate change the way oil hates water. I don’t want anything to do with it. Please don’t make me interact with it. I will do anything to avoid it.

Over the past 6 weeks or so, a lot of really big things in my life have changed.

It’s not been like “I’m going to rearrange the furniture” kind of change. It’s more like “move into a whole new house in a whole new country” kind of change. Big, major changes. Continue reading

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Gripping the Steering Wheel

We were in the car when she asked the question:

“What are you working so hard to do, here?  What is in your hand that you are not willing to let go of?”  Those words poured out of my friend’s mouth, and I gripped the steering wheel tighter. Continue reading

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Out At Sea…

I love the ocean.  There is something magical for me about standing on a beach and seeing nothing except water and sky.  I love the foamy white waves, the sand between my toes, and the way the water moves anything and everything out of its way to get to where it’s going.  The ocean is alive.  And in its own way, it makes me feel alive, too. Continue reading


Go Anyway

Drops of water hit the windshield and my heart sank a little.

“It figures,” I thought.

We recently discovered a park in our city and I had promised the kids we would go back when we could stay longer.  This was the day.  The weather report said there was a chance of rain, but it wouldn’t be a wash-out.  I was hoping we would be on the dry side of that chance.

Evidently we weren’t. Continue reading