My Right Now Life

learning to fully embrace this moment and fully live right now…


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Five Minute Friday: Crowd

{It’s Friday!  Actually, it’s Saturday where I am, but Friday got away from me somehow!  But it can still be time for Five Minute Friday, right??  The rules are simple:  A one-word prompt.  5 minutes of focused writing.  No editing.  And then we link up here to see what God has put on hearts all over blog-world  🙂 }

Today’s (yesterday’s) word:  Crowd

GO.

Remember that woman who had the blood disorder?  The one who fought through the crowd to get to Jesus?  Every cultural standard said she shouldn’t have been there.  I would imagine that every person she touched as she fought through the crowd knew it… I’m sure SHE knew it.

Some days, I don’t need to fight through a literal crowd of people to get to Jesus.  Some days, the voices in my head are enough of a crowd.

“Who do you think you are?”

“You can’t…”

“You aren’t enough, remember?”

“You are damaged, broken.”

“No one wants you here.”

And yet, in the middle of all of that noise, that chaos, that confusion… there is Jesus.  Jesus, who not only speaks truth, but HE IS THE TRUTH.  And if I can just get through the crowd of voices to HIM…

If I can touch even the edge of the garment of the TRUTH…

He meets me there.  Every time.

“My child.  YOU are enough.  You can.  I love you.”

And the crowd goes silent.

STOP


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Still… (For When the Winds Blow – Part 2)

So that flag at the top of the flagpole, the one feeling tattered and torn?  Yep, she needs this today.  You too, maybe?

She tries to hang on and she tries to stop flailing.  She even tries to stop the blustery thoughts that whip her around and tear at the threads that hold her together.  She is so afraid that she will be rejected or abandoned that she tries desperately to hold on to anything that makes her feel secure.

Maybe in all her trying, she is forgetting the most important thing.  She doesn’t need to hold on.  She needs to be held.

(Casting Crowns has a great song about this very idea:  “Just Be Held”)

She is held.  The flagpole is secure.  And it’s not going anywhere.  It holds her.

If she remembers she is loved, she can rest.  She can stop flailing and simply rest in His Love.

She forgets sometimes, but she can be still.  She can be still because HE is still:  He is still on the throne.  He is still faithful.  He is still a good father.  He is still loving her… and will always be.

That’s security.

If He is Love, then Love is in his very essence… and Love is in His presence.  And this Love is strong and powerful and secure.

The wind is no match for His Presence.

He can quiet any storm.  And He can quiet her.  He quiets her with His Love (Zephaniah 3:17).

As she takes a deep breath, the winds subside, and she feels herself relax into the security of the Flagpole.

She is held.


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For When the Winds Blow

This winter has been relentless!

Snow and ice and cold air… this “Arctic Blast” has taken its toll on nearly everyone I know.  The general consensus is that spring is not coming soon enough!

Isn’t it funny that in December winter seems magical and enchanting (who doesn’t dream of a white Christmas?), but come January (and now well into February), winter is just annoying and exhausting?

For me, the wind might be my least favorite part of winter.  It’s just cold… bone-chilling cold.  The way it tends to swirl around and change directions make it seem unpredictable and fickle.

Those of us with control issues don’t like unpredictable or fickle. Continue reading


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Icicles

It’s been several weeks ago now.  I was sitting in my car with some time to kill because I was early for an appointment. Just the day before, a pretty significant snow storm rolled through, but that storm was gone now and all that was left was cold air, sunshine, and a snow-blanket on the ground.  I don’t know what made me notice, but the sunlight was hitting the mirror on my car door in just the right way and drops of melting snow sparkled and shimmered. I watched as the snow melted into drops of water that swelled until they couldn’t hang onto the car anymore, and then they fell to the ground.  Drop after drop formed… the same way, with the same result.  Continue reading


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Stop Shaking My Snow Globe!

Ok – so confession time! I don’t like change. No, that’s not true… I actually think I HATE change. I hate change the way oil hates water. I don’t want anything to do with it. Please don’t make me interact with it. I will do anything to avoid it.

Over the past 6 weeks or so, a lot of really big things in my life have changed.

It’s not been like “I’m going to rearrange the furniture” kind of change. It’s more like “move into a whole new house in a whole new country” kind of change. Big, major changes. Continue reading


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Gripping the Steering Wheel

We were in the car when she asked the question:

“What are you working so hard to do, here?  What is in your hand that you are not willing to let go of?”  Those words poured out of my friend’s mouth, and I gripped the steering wheel tighter. Continue reading


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Go Anyway

Drops of water hit the windshield and my heart sank a little.

“It figures,” I thought.

We recently discovered a park in our city and I had promised the kids we would go back when we could stay longer.  This was the day.  The weather report said there was a chance of rain, but it wouldn’t be a wash-out.  I was hoping we would be on the dry side of that chance.

Evidently we weren’t. Continue reading


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In the Woods

One of my favorite things to do is take nature walks with my kids. We look for bugs and interesting rocks. We try to see how many different kinds of “critters” (birds, squirrels, turtles, frogs, etc.) we can find. We try to take notice of the small things that we might otherwise miss, like flowers, moss growing on old logs, spider webs, and shadows. There is something about these walks, about being in nature, that makes me feel more connected to my kids and to God. Continue reading